gothrockrulz: (peggy)
A lot of great things happened in this week's Hannibal episode, but all I can think about now is poor Margot. Way to go, writing team, you managed to make me feel sympathetic trauma and violation on Margot's behalf, on the same scale I would have felt if I had to witness a rape scene, without actually witnessing a rape scene. AFTER I was ALREADY squirming and cringing because we didn't escape allusions to the things Mason did to children. I was really, really hoping that would get left out, or referenced so quickly, you'd miss it if you blinked. But, noooo, we had to watch the freakin' tear-jerker scene with the little boy (and watch it replayed with Margot), AND listen to Mason bragging in a few words that were still WAY TOO MANY to Hannibal. It was difficult enough to read it in the book--it's a whole different ballgame to watch it on TV. For entertainment.

To say I feel betrayed in a vague yet still personal way is an understatement. Maybe it's just because I'm really, really sensitive about pregnant women and children in general. Probably it's not.

Somebody tear Mason Verger to shreds. Please and thank you. Now I'm off to go watch something therapeutic.

ETA: Oh, look, Alana GIFs that explain perfectly how I feel.

gothrockrulz: (ARMAND)
Don't mind me, I'm just sitting here, impatiently waiting for my Hydra CD to come in the mail. YouTube is not enough right now. I kinda miss the old style Within Temptation. "Truth Beneath the Rose" and "Hand of Sorrow" and "Ice Queen" are the first things that strike me when I think of my favorite band. But at the same time, I love how their current musical style is a strong tribute to the rock style of the 80's. I want to be able to write books in multiple genres, so I guess I can't blame them for experimenting with different styles, too. :)

And don't get me started on G's upcoming single. I'm super excited, but more and more, I'm worried I'll be a little disappointed. For me (and quite a few other fans), his masterpiece will always be Last Song. But since G himself wants this song to carry his memory, to be his defining song, in a way . . . I don't know. I don't know. I think, as we say on Tumblr, I have too many feelz. (Yes, that's feelz with the z. It's more emotive. LOL.)

To bring up the subject of writing again, I'm not happy where I'm at with my main WIP. The story has gotten ridiculously long and complex, and I originally decided to split it into two books. But there's just too much material. I'm afraid I'm looking at a trilogy--a very disjointed trilogy that's taken almost four years of my life, on and off. And I feel like it'll take four more years to get it up to snuff. But I'm determined to try to finish it this year, if only so I can move on to another project. It's just not easy to do so while juggling two jobs.

Interestingly, this recurring customer at work, whom I always forget, always remembers me and asks about my writing. (Actually, there may be more than one. Like I say, I forget them easily.) I don't know whether to call that sweet or scary. I can't quite read her, so I have no idea how to react, and I just smile and say thanks. I don't like feeling completely unable to gauge people, because it makes me feel vulnerable. Ah, well.
gothrockrulz: (morticia)
I stumbled across a book title that got me really, really excited: The Heroine's Bookshelf: Life Lessons from Jane Austen to Laura Ingalls Wilder. ZOMG. Laura Ingalls Wilder shaped my girlhood, and Jane Austen shaped my teen years. Must. Read. This. Book.

But when I actually started reading it today, I didn't get far before I lost patience.

And nowhere is Lizzy's raucus, flawed, and decided sense of self more clear or more enticing than in the moments in which she does the exact opposite of what she is expected to do.

A nice thought, except raucus? Raucus, as in harsh or rough? (I looked up Wiktionary's definition, just to make sure I remembered the meaning right.) Raucus and Miss Lizzy in the same sentence? Wow, which version of Pride and Prejudice have I been reading? I'm sorry, but Elizabeth Bennet is not raucus, nor are her manners. Nor, even, is her "sense of self" as a connoisseur of human folly.

Reading further, the intense admiration for Austen is adorable, but the constant harping on self and sense of self drove me nuts. Is it really so hard to figure out who you are and who you want to be? It must be for some, though that's kinda hard for me to relate. For me, the hard part is letting other people figure out who you really are, because that requires a lot of trust.
gothrockrulz: (howdy sam and dean)
Hello, all! Last few days have been a whirlwind of busy-ness and fatigue. (I say busy-ness instead of business, because there was nothing business-y about it. Yes, I'm feeling like butchering my native--and only--language today.) Fun, but not fun, because I've been separated from my preciousssss, the internet and the people on it. :D

But now I must fangirl over the premiere of Supernatural Season 8. This is special to me in so many ways, because for the first time, I'm caught up on a TV series just as it's actually, factually happening. That is an awesome feeling, minus the suspense rendered by commercials and waiting an entire week for the next episode. I'm used to blazing through 2 to 4 episodes a day.

Without dropping too many spoilers, let's just say I really enjoyed the episode, but felt it just a tad off. Like they had to amble through a set-up of the premise that really felt like nothing had happened, and the good stuff was still to come. Best part of the episode was, by far, our boys being reunited for the bajillionth time. That will never, ever get old.

And neither will this GIF. :D


Sep. 24th, 2012 02:55 pm
gothrockrulz: (Default)
Sorry that I've kinda been missing in action. Last few days have not been conductive to spending time on the internet, what with a friend needing back-to-back sleepovers while she's alone in a new house with her parents out of town, and what with me, Mom, and two of my brothers watching 9 or 10 Supernatural Season 7 episodes in two days. (Our DVD FINALLY CAME, PRECIOUSSSS.) Speaking of precious, anybody seen the latest Hobbit trailer? I dare anybody to watch it without being divided by squees and tears. :D

I'll close with a GIF, because I fee like it.

gothrockrulz: (sam winchester)
. . . that you walk across your dark bedroom to turn off your CD player, only to see a silhouette of a spider on the INSIDE of the LED screen?

Well, odds or no odds, I just did. Usually, I would find that cool instead of creepy--but in this instance, this spider naturally just HAD to look like a tiny brown recluse. (And if baby spiders are anything like baby snakes when it comes to not knowing when to stop spewing venom . . . yikes.)

My poor CD player is going to have to spend the night outside. Hopefully, nothing else will crawl inside after the spider decides to leave.

And the images of brown recluses (sprinkled with horrifically unattended brown recluse bites) that I looked at are certainly not helping me feel like going to sleep.
gothrockrulz: (reid)
Apparently, the latest insult against dead literary giants that can't defend their own works anymore is. . . revamping classics so they read like Fifty Shades of Grey.

Yeah, you read that right.

And I thought Pride and Prejudice and Zombies was infuriating. That's got NOTHING on this. I'm not sure whether to shoot myself or go on a killing spree.


Or just stick to fanfiction, at the very least. Do NOT tamper with the original work, written in blood and sweat and tears, of writers to whom you can't even begin to compare. Show some respect, even if you have no restraint or dignity.

Sorry if you can't hear me over my screams of "SACRILEGE!" Jane Austen is my hero, and has been for years, and I can't stand it when people trample her work because they're too stupid or too lazy to appreciate its wit and subtlety. I've just been reading a compiled work of her letters, and feeling more in awe of her than ever.

I shall try to say something more upbeat and happy.

Is it confirmed that Versailles (Philharmonic Quintet) is disbanding? I need more bad fandom news; I really do.


Jul. 1st, 2012 02:12 pm
gothrockrulz: (sephiroth)
I'm going to have a busy work schedule this week, because the lady who usually works in jewelry will be on vacation. So I'm basically going to be in jewelry all week long, more or less. Do not want.

credit jejeymoron

It's not that I hate working in jewelry--I hate being tempted to buy all sorts of beautiful crap while working in jewelry. Hello, girl, you can't spend your paycheck before you even get it. We're supposed to be saving. (Am I the only one that lectures myself in multiple persons? Please tell me I'm not.)
gothrockrulz: (howdy sam and dean)
My brother and I pooled our money into getting a semi-expensive camera. (Bro describes it as high-end personal, low-end pro.) All of us kids want a nice camera to develop our skills before we go into the really expensive stuff, so we're getting one to share. That way I can take pictures for sketching and for fun; one brother can spam Instagram, or whatever it's called, with pro wannabe photos; and the another brother can create his own HQ textures for his 3D graphics. (I have three brothers. None of them are named Darrell.)

Now we're going crazy waiting for it to ship. We can't wait to start taking pictures of everything we see!

More rambling . . . )
gothrockrulz: (Default)
I actually got a working moodtheme up! Yay! (So glad someone gave me a tip to help me in the right direction.)

My cousin's baby came last week (or was it the week before?), and today we got to see Junior for the first time.

More family and personal life rambling . . . )
gothrockrulz: (hotch awesome)
Blegh. Where is the year going? I feel as if I haven't gotten anything done yet--especially as I'm watching a ton of people struggling to stay afloat during finals, my BFF and brother included. Kinda makes me feel guilty that I've got it easy by comparison--but, hey, working part-time and writing the rest of the time, instead of going to college, was my choice. I'll keep at it, and see if my hunch that I can pursue a writing career my own way will turn out right. (Of course, keeping that "writing the rest of the time" literal and fresh in my mind would help. I tend to get distracted too easily.)

Speaking of distractions, perhaps I should pretend the internet is down for a while. That might help. I saw an icon somewhere that read something like this: "The key to being a successful writer is keeping off the internet." True, that.

But, before I go, I've got to post this video. It's an ad-lib moment from the filming of season 4 of Supernatural. THIS is the best example of why I'm hopelessly addicted to this show. Jensen Ackles is one of the most awesome dorks on the planet, and I will never be able to hear "Eye of the Tiger" again without giggling.

gothrockrulz: (zomg!)
Well, at least, I'm doing the latter part. Not quite so good at the keeping calm part. The heat is really getting to me; I nearly snapped at a customer at the bowling alley today.

Insert cut here . . . )
gothrockrulz: (don't make em)
Thanks to [ profile] iron_kat for the heads-up about this newest addition to the horror show that included SOPA and PIPA.

Say hello to CISPA, yet another bill out to steal our internet rights.

I think I want to wear my Hunger Games Mockingjay pin 24/7 now.
gothrockrulz: (Default)
I'm going to be messing with my LJ layout for a while. It may take an hour, or it may take a week. Just be aware weird stuff will be going on.

By the way, guess what my Mom and sister are doing while filling Easter eggs with goodies? Watching The Addams Family. This is one of those days when I love my family. XD
gothrockrulz: (sephiroth)
I love playing dress-up. (Obvious statement is obvious.) I've seen a lot of fabulous cosplays for specific characters or people (all my Gackt-obssessed friends are probably thinking with envy of Ghostkiller right now), and now I want to do it, too! For a while, I'd been thinking about buying a Genesis Rhapsodos costume, complete with wig and sword. Finally, I decided to go for it, and started searching the internet.

How do you spell frustration again? I've got the weirdest feeling it's supposed to be a four-letter word. )
gothrockrulz: (Default)
I can't seem to do ANYTHING without a phrase, a smell, an image, or a sound prompting a plotbunny. And not a useful plotbunny to help me through a rut in the manuscript I'm already working on--oh, no! It's always a little nagging plotbunny for starting a brand new story, a story with nothing planned or structured, save for that one idea that won't leave me alone. One idea to join a chorus of other ideas.

What is it this time? A GIF. Right here on tumblr, AKA the most useful time-consuming device on the planet.

At first, I didn't like Emma Watson's short haircut, because I thought it was a step down from the lovely locks she already had. But, I must admit, the look there suits her.

And also puts me in mind of Hyde, though I have no idea why.

Down, plotbunnies! Down! I can't deal with this right now.

The plotbunnies are not listening.
gothrockrulz: (nuada)
I am trying to devote my energy and my muse to my WIP, like a good little writer. Especially since for the last month, my discipline and inspiration has pretty much nose-dived.

But no matter how much I try to focus on the task at hand, I keep getting ideas for a Crisis Core fanfic about Sephiroth, Genesis, and Angeal. A fanfic that I've been putting off for weeks. Maybe months.

Stop it, boys, I have to work on my novel. Arg.

Okay, back to writing about killing vampires and other mythical beings . . .
gothrockrulz: (sephiroth)
I was thinking about posting something really awesome or funny or touching on 11/11/11.

Guess what? I can't think of anything that seems awesome enough. (Besides pictures of baby pterodactyls, which I don't have.)

So I'll just post one of my favorite poems.

William S. Gilbert

In enterprise of martial kind,
When there was any fighting,
He led his regiment from behind
(He found it less exciting).

Here is the rest . . . )
gothrockrulz: (nuada)
Note to self: do not write villains so powerful that you have to kill off a ton of the good guys in order to bring said villains down.

gothrockrulz: (morticia)
Note: very long, GIF-peppered rant in progress.

Over and over and over, I get asked the same question in various forms as I'm working as a cashier in retail.

"Where'd you get the cute accent?"

"So where are you from?"

"Are you British?"

Over and over and over, my answer is also pretty much the same. I'm an American girl, and I've never been out of the U.S. I've lived all my life in the same Southwest, same state, same county, same town. I've even lived in the same house for over 15 years.

But NOBODY believes me.


[GIF from severaldancingwampas at tumblr]

More ranting through this portal . . . )


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