GOTH ROCK RULZ

Hello! I hope you all are having a good time in 2023 so far.

Brief version of my life these past few weeks:

1. I got covid over Christmas (maybe from eating unmasked at work? maybe from grocery store despite masking? who knows). I am mostly recovered, just a slight cough that comes and goes and the tiniest congestion in my lungs i’m keeping tabs on.

2. My depression has, uh, reached new lows. I’m okay but struggling to adapt.

3. My sister’s depression is nearly at crisis level. We’re researching OCD-specialist therapists now her insurance kicks in but there’s only so many spoons both of us have. We got a plan just will take a bit of time.

4. I am probably going to quit my part time weekend job after I earn enough to pay off my upcoming travel to San Jose & Colorado Springs. I wanted to last there six months and save up but 60 hours a week (except when I called out to rest from covid) is just too much.

5. I’m feeling SO creative lately but i’m literally too tired to do shit lmao all I do is work and sleep and listen to audiobooks.

I wish everyone who has a good relationship with their father is great holiday.

Won't go that way for me because we're estranged in pretty much every sense of the word except, y'know, the word itself. I reluctantly agreed to go to dinner along with two of my siblings, provided we're not eating out. No restaurants for a while unless it's takeout.

Anybody read any good books lately? I just started Honor Among Thieves and I absolutely love it. This is exactly the sort of sci-fi I adore, big concepts and wonder, but on a small, bite-sized scale as the hero/heroine deals with their inner struggles.

Hullo, everyone! Hope you are doing well.

Phoenix Comicon was a blast, despite a scare with an armed nutjob on Thursday, horrific organization Friday, and a prop weapons ban for the rest of the con. Will post pictures when I have the energy. And also blog about the books I've been slowly thumbing through and the manga I blazed through with abandon.

A personal post may also be in the works, my moods have swung particularly extreme lately, and life seems to equal fatigue and lack of patience.

What's been happening in your neck of the woods?

You know that jury summons I couldn't find (but I did eventually)? Well, even though I had it up in plain sight for weeks, I forgot about it until literally the last minute. Called the night before I was supposed to appear, heard my group summoned. Called out from part time job (down to just Mondays for my retail job), showed up at the courthouse downtown. Stuck around all day and got picked. Had to call out from my full time job Tues-Fri. We the happiest jury ever (literally, our awesome bailiff and all the staff around us were amazed how chill and fun we were) finally reached a verdict this afternoon. I have NEVER felt more free in my life. And I swear I'm NEVER forgetting about something like this again. (JFYI, I now know all sorts of cool stuff about how blood is tested for alcohol content.)

Last night, I blew off some stress watching Guardians of the Galaxy. It was really fun! I really resented the beginning, though. Yeah, just have a long, drawn-out, heartbreaking scene about a mother dying of cancer. You need to clinically depress all but the hardest hearts in the theater in order to get us to sympathize with Starlord. It's a good thing the rest of the movie was crazy fun, or else my emotions would never recover. The scene gathering Starlord, Gamora, Groot, and Rocket all together as they beat the crap out of each other was golden. I do wish we could have had more character backstory and development, like Avengers did, but that's okay. I'm glad they didn't try to force too much sappiness with Starlord and Gamora. Gamora ain't here for none of that nonsense. Lee Pace and Karen Gillan were pretty much wasted, though, just because there wasn't time to give them a chance to do much. Overall, though, it had a marked Star Wars vibe, and I enjoyed it.

I don't know if it's cute or pathetic that buying a new broom made me happy today. Also can't decide if I'm tired or lazy, or both.

But I do know that I can't wait to see Maleficent.



Alright, off I go to coax my writing muse into cooperating. Every time I try to buckle down, my brain decides to freak out like C-3PO.

I thought it was Tuesday today. Since Tuesday always means morning shift at my call center job, I drove to the call center. And didn't realize it was Monday until my supervisor told me. Commence headdesk, apologies to bosses at both jobs, and a hurried drive to my retail job, luckily clocking in only 30 minutes late. People joked, and that was it. But boy, did my pride STING. Here I'm trying to be extra competent to land a coordinator position (which I'd been expecting for what, a year now, pending availability?).

I'm just going to blame my Tuesday fixation on Supernatural. Winchesters and resident angel of mischief, you life-ruiners, you. (LOVED the first episode, BTW, though I don't like Hael at all and semi-like Ezekiel. Not excited that all new female characters get on my nerves, except Charlie.)

I just hope and pray I don't wake up tomorrow and think it's Wednesday. O.O

The phrase "I can't even" sometimes gets on my nerves, and sometimes feels just right for the topic at hand, depending on my mood. Whenever Floor Jansen is concerned, it's spot-on. (Also, I really want that black and red outfit she's got in the video. It's fabulous. :D)

( I also went shopping with my Mom, a favorite mother-daughter hobby of ours. )

May you relish a great day filled with song and laughter as well as food!

Tomorrow will be a busy and tiring day (at first, at least), so I'm sending my greetings now while I can. Even though Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday, thanks to all the food preparation, it's also pretty exhausting. Wish I could make it last longer! Thanksgiving seems to get the short end of the stick, being dwarfed by Halloween before and Christmas after. Sometimes I wonder if I'm the only person that thinks of Thanksgiving not only as a day of thanks, but a day of rest and serenity (after the cooking). This time of year always feels calming and soothing, somehow, in spite of everything else happening. A much-needed wind-down, to allow time to catch breath, and then actually enjoy each breath. :)

Hello, all! Last few days have been a whirlwind of busy-ness and fatigue. (I say busy-ness instead of business, because there was nothing business-y about it. Yes, I'm feeling like butchering my native--and only--language today.) Fun, but not fun, because I've been separated from my preciousssss, the internet and the people on it. :D

But now I must fangirl over the premiere of Supernatural Season 8. This is special to me in so many ways, because for the first time, I'm caught up on a TV series just as it's actually, factually happening. That is an awesome feeling, minus the suspense rendered by commercials and waiting an entire week for the next episode. I'm used to blazing through 2 to 4 episodes a day.

Without dropping too many spoilers, let's just say I really enjoyed the episode, but felt it just a tad off. Like they had to amble through a set-up of the premise that really felt like nothing had happened, and the good stuff was still to come. Best part of the episode was, by far, our boys being reunited for the bajillionth time. That will never, ever get old.

And neither will this GIF. :D

I'm going to have a busy work schedule this week, because the lady who usually works in jewelry will be on vacation. So I'm basically going to be in jewelry all week long, more or less. Do not want.


credit jejeymoron

It's not that I hate working in jewelry--I hate being tempted to buy all sorts of beautiful crap while working in jewelry. Hello, girl, you can't spend your paycheck before you even get it. We're supposed to be saving. (Am I the only one that lectures myself in multiple persons? Please tell me I'm not.)