Dunno What to Post, But Here Goes
Nov. 12th, 2020 05:30 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
gothrockrulzSo, I'm on a Twitter hiatus. The fuckery and doom and gloom on my TL (some of which I RT'd) was getting to me, so I just went NOPE. Threw up a hiatus status so nobody would be feel ghosted. (But then people got worried anyway so . . . haha can't win, oh well.)
My brain is doing SO much better now. But I'm still trying to figure out how much of the funk I'm in is due to various things. It's probably all combined.
Here's the count:
a) weathering burnout, with everything but especially the election
b) struggling with the same pre-mourning experience I had back in Jan/Feb
c) waffling over cutting family and church friends out of my life
d) accepting and dealing with a possible romantic relationship I want to pursue AND with a kink-laced friendship where one party definitely has romantic feelings and it's not me
e) dealing with a year's worth of OH OKAY moments re: to kink after avoiding it for nearly 30 years because I didn't have the mental space
f) wrapping my head around that I have always been in "treading water" mode my entire life, with maybe an exception of vacations last year, and if I'll ever get out of "treading water" mode
... okay no wonder I needed a time out from life.
But, on positive notes: I'm getting back into reading and I'm checking out my crafting stash to decide what I will ACTUALLY use and what needs to be sent on to somebody who needs it more than I.
My brain is doing SO much better now. But I'm still trying to figure out how much of the funk I'm in is due to various things. It's probably all combined.
Here's the count:
a) weathering burnout, with everything but especially the election
b) struggling with the same pre-mourning experience I had back in Jan/Feb
c) waffling over cutting family and church friends out of my life
d) accepting and dealing with a possible romantic relationship I want to pursue AND with a kink-laced friendship where one party definitely has romantic feelings and it's not me
e) dealing with a year's worth of OH OKAY moments re: to kink after avoiding it for nearly 30 years because I didn't have the mental space
f) wrapping my head around that I have always been in "treading water" mode my entire life, with maybe an exception of vacations last year, and if I'll ever get out of "treading water" mode
... okay no wonder I needed a time out from life.
But, on positive notes: I'm getting back into reading and I'm checking out my crafting stash to decide what I will ACTUALLY use and what needs to be sent on to somebody who needs it more than I.
